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Friday, July 30, 2010

Life has gotten back to its hectic state.
There is so many things to be done and I am simply not efficient enough.
Before I start ranting, let me share some good news =D I got into CCA exco yay..
- secretary-treasurer :P

That amounts to more work.

Next week gonna be even more hectic.
First up, chem lecture test.
Next, GP compre test.
Then, reach cambridge meeting.
Finally, Chem Olympiad till 7pm.

How wonderful. I wonder why I got myself into all these but I guess its worth it.

Tuesday, I must remember there is the final mock Chem SPA test and smtp enrichment but something is tagging at the end of my mind telling me I seem to have left out something. Hope I didn't.

Oh wells and the list goes on and one and on..

I hope I can be more efficient and productive. I need to start studying for chem.. hope it wun be too hard.

Jiayou! Jiayou!
I nidda add oil.

singing to the wind[9:45 pm]

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Saturday, July 24, 2010

The colorgenics test is for some reason very accurate.. how odd =)

Name: simin
Date: Saturday 24th 2010f July 2010 08:33:52 AM
Colorgenics Number: 4/1/2/0/6/5/3/7/

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You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

singing to the wind[3:37 pm]

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Friday, July 23, 2010

I was feeling really tired a momment ago but I went to listen to a soundtrack then I immendiately felt better although still tired.

I guess I really shouldn't emo too much.. Life isn't meant to be like this. In fact, I should heed my dad's advice and think about one thing that made me happy per day.. I guess I wouldn't brighten things up no matter wad.

I shall jiayou for all my endeavours and hope for the best. Hopefully, fate can decide a good path for me to take on for the future.

Alright. Although I really have alot of things to do and my productivity cannot make it, I shall still be happy since I chose the life I am leading now... I should find it meaningful and fulfilling.

Shall leave everyone with a song =D

singing to the wind[8:49 pm]

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Friday, July 16, 2010

I was feeling very free this entire week until today argh..

so many things come crashing down
Oh dear.

First up, I suddenly got informed that I might possibly be flying off to Cambridge in TWO weeks GOSH ><

Then I realised I still want to apply for CENTAD and MOE research programme and everything is tentative and cannot overlap HOW argh Of course I only want 1 programme but I cannot put all my eggs in one basket wad and the deadline for application is next week .. got all those interviews and stuff ahhhh

Then I am going for CIP tmr when I am sick ><

And I still have to prepare CCA stuff

Last but definitely not least I got loads of assignments projects and tutorials ahhhhhhh Oh and class testS...

GOSH

EEKKS

OH wells .. the only solution now is PRIORITISE
Hope it works =)

singing to the wind[7:47 pm]

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Sunday, July 04, 2010

hee I was playing so much for the past few days that I forgot to rant at my blog
Actually there is no need to rant anymore since BT is over and my life returned to its wonderful state of playing,slacking,playing .. and so on

I realise something I love to relax but I trade my day-dreaming relaxing time to watch TV and play online games actually I wonder what's the point since I do not derive that much joy from such activities.. Human physchology is perplexing ><

I hope 每天都可以优哉闲哉，无忧无虑的过日子。

BT is distressing..

Oh wells.. shall not talk about it

Anyway I should start doing all the overdue work.. I think its abit late to talk about it now since my friends would have already done them ><

Nvm let me just play and relax before I immerse myself in the pile of homework

lalalalala another day with a whimsical mood ^^
I rather like this mood.. I hope I can stay longer in this mood than be emo or whatever

I think I have changed since I came to Hwachong I became much more feeling than a thinking sort of person.. In the past I take pride in being rational and logical all the time, now I think I am becoming too emotional and less rational
I need to do something about it.. to retain my rationality hmmm being too emotional makes me vulnerable I shall learn to protect myself
Anyway its not Hwachong's fault.. Its me.. I am changing and I do not know if its good or bad

I dunnoe what's going to happen in the future but I shall stay happy and hopeful =D

singing to the wind[5:42 pm]

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Thursday, July 01, 2010

It's a weird time to blog when the terrifying Bio paper is tmr ><

I guess it wouldn't any better if I take physics

It seems to me that our school's papers are set with the only purpose of trying to traumatise students and removes us of our joy of learning...
I hope I won't get PTSD tmr.. pray hard ><
I need someone to 宣泄 all my pent-up frustrations and stress with. Maybe I should consider going to the beach and scream my lungs out >< or maybe taking the viking ship in the escape theme park would help then I can scream legitimately ^^

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Help
arghs

I shall continue my ranting tmr...

singing to the wind[1:48 pm]

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