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Friday, June 10, 2011

Although this holiday is pretty packed, I was being quite slack for the past few days. I went out for 2 of the days out of the 6 days after H3 and watched Pirates of the Caribbeans =D The movie was as nice as I expect it to be haha I applaud Johnny Depp's acting skills. Oh and I bought 4 new books, all fiction though.. nothing really informative, mainly thrillers. I watch alot of dramas these few days too. I thought I should pay a tribute to all professional singers and actors and also dancers out there. I realise I really enjoyed watching and listening to these amazing artiste whom are able to direct their emotions to the audience through various artistic platforms. There are quite a few actors that are not exactly handsome, but their acting skills are truly superb to the point that your heart go all out for their character in the show. 牵动心弦

I ought to treasure and enjoy whatever slack time I have now rather than just let days past without really living through every moment.

singing to the wind[8:32 pm]

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Wednesday, June 08, 2011

It seems to me that life is one huge big dilemma. Of ambivalence and conflicts be it internal or external. Sometimes, the problems faced and the decisions we have to make are too difficult for our young minds to handle. Mood swings have become pretty common nowadays, sometimes I feel at peace, sometimes I feel immensely troubled. In fact, the times I feel tranquil is perhaps because I decided to let go of the troubles for the time being and escape (by reading, shopping or catching a movie). I am troubled because I am unhappy with myself for having such massive reluctance to study. The uncertainty of the future too worries me. I know my problems are insignificant to the world, everyone has their own set of many problems. But somehow, they just seem insurmountable. I very much want to study with my friends, perhaps through that I can get some support and motivation but I don't dare to ask. I am afraid of causing trouble to my friends.

As I look through my posts, I realise my mood seems to alternate every few days.. I hope its not a sign of schizophrenia. I feel like saying sorry, for everything I fail to do right.

singing to the wind[2:24 pm]

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Saturday, June 04, 2011

Although H3 was fun, I feel wonderful when it's over. Haha such a nice feeling. I have been indulging in joyous mood for the past 24 hours and have not done a single piece of work since. Perhaps it's fated. When I tried to start doing the math revision booklet, I could'nt find my compass and when I finally drew a rather perfect circle freehand I realise my GC is not working due to a battery leak. Well, the result was a half done question; I went off to watch tv since I couldn't use my GC. Well, I have lots to blame myself for but I guess I sorta accepted all my flaws despite being guilty of not doing anything about them.

Hahh I am recently reading a book called seven deadly wonders by mattew reily. Well, it is quite a nice book. Not the profound philosophical kind but the action-packed, adventure driven type :P Haha perhaps I am superficial to like those books. I guess the real reason behind it is escapism. The books I like bring me to a world of imagination.. and indeed it's very fun reading them.

Hmm I feel like playing room escape game now.. byes ^^

singing to the wind[12:10 pm]

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