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Saturday, October 29, 2011

Disenchanted

The paucity of such people says a lot about the strength of relationships nowadays.

"No excuses, no lies, no broken promises"

Does that even exist?

singing to the wind[6:04 pm]

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Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I have done my best and there is nothing more that I could do. I just hope that somewhere out there there will be a hand stretched out to hold me up, and catch me if I fall.

I don't know why I always drift off into dreamland every time I try reading my notes. Inefficiency. I shall attempt to figure out a way to study smart. Hahh....

'Don't think' is easily said than done. I can't seem to drown out all negative feelings by slacking. In fact, it exacerbated the situation.

Sometimes, I hope the fatigue and worries will go away. I hope that A levels is already over. I hope everything is going to be okay. I... I am tired.

I need external motivation. I can't seem to understand why the process of mugging for recent exams is so agonizing. I feel like I am drowning in all the distress...

I need to breathe...

singing to the wind[4:31 pm]

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Thursday, October 20, 2011

这不是多愁善感的季节，收起你的郁郁寡欢积极的面对每一天。乐天开朗的人生观会让日子好过些。随风而飘，随水而流。随缘吧。。。

Breathe~ and smile :)

Understanding Peaceful Elegant Talented

I don't know how true is this but amid the stress and pessimism it is something to make you feel good about yourself. It will be great if people really think of me like this but meanwhile I shall indulge in this egoistic idea :D

singing to the wind[6:23 pm]

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Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I think it is very funny but yeah... I have always loved animals for their simplicity and purity but I didn't think of being a vet. As I was walking home I saw a retriever walking towards me, I couldn't help but walk up and said hi (well to the owner as well). It is not my usual self to talk to strangers. In fact, I even feel awkward walking up and saying hi to some of my friends. But dogs... Aww... dissolve all the possible emotional barrier. I kept thinking about it and my love for animals become suddenly so apparent. It sorted dawned on me upon me that I really wanted to do something for the animals. But it seems too late now that I have sent all my uni app. I don't know. I don't feel prepare to make a career decision of a lifetime but missing the opportunity now would mean taking a huge detour before reaching my destination. I really don't know.

singing to the wind[8:46 pm]

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Thursday, October 13, 2011

Conflicting goals... Haha. How many times do I have to tell myself to take it easy? I can't prevent myself from making the mistake of stressing too much and doing too little. When will I be able to convert the pressure to productivity... Ahhh...

I should stop all the unnecessary thinking. I believe I have an overactive mind; I can't help but wonder about alot of random things. Ahh I shall stop repeating the obvious over here. Do something about it! Probably I should have a rest and set aside sometime to relax.

singing to the wind[8:54 pm]

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Friday, October 07, 2011

Maybe sometimes I should believe in myself a little bit more.
Confidence is important to provide positive energy and make a good first impression. I would need it to salvage my terrible interview skills. I guess even if I don't believe that I am that good I should pretend I am if not I will not be able to create a lasting impression for the interviewers. Of course interview is not the most important thing to consider. Confidence I suppose is a life skill. I should stop marveling at the people with charisma and exuding confidence and learn to do it myself.

Actually, I believe it is important to constantly challenge and stimulate your brains intellectually to maintain its capability. (My reason? haha it is evident by the declining trend of my math grades and consistency of my science grades) I don't really believe that if you were good you will always be good. I like SMTP because it stretches your ability and makes core curriculum stuff more manageable.

Hahh... I don't know why I feel very tired everyday. I always tell myself to give myself a break. But I effectively hadn't done anything to make me deserving of the break. But I still slack la.. Oh wells... Hmm I like nature... Although I am never particularly fond of the colour green, I love to look at patches of grass, bushes and trees. I like the serenity and the 与世无争 kind of feeling.

I realise my outlook of life always toggles between realistic and idealistic. I was more realistic when I was younger and more idealistic these two years. But I think I am switching back to realism.

Jiayou, jiayou. I shall be more disciplined.

singing to the wind[1:15 pm]

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