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Friday, March 30, 2012

I guess no matter how happens I will just stay true to myself and hold on to what I believe in. Don't compare myself with other people. Being too judgmental makes life difficult. Shouldn't let other people's achievements make me feel inferior in anyway. Believe in myself :)

singing to the wind[10:59 pm]

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Thursday, March 29, 2012

I know I shouldn't be slacking at this time but I shall recount a fearful experience I encountered in my current job. Maybe it's not that scary but I did feel very scared. I think I am going to avoid the doctor as much as possible from now. I am actually very new in my job but I somehow got assigned to assist the neurologist senior consultant alone without much preparation. He was very fast in his work and had 14 patients in the afternoon session. He needed the EEG report of one patient but I couldn't find it anywhere. After some delay, he barged into the EEG and requested it to be printed. He got me to one side and whispered "I know you are new, if you don't know get someone senior. You are holding up the patients, we can't afford to wait." Although he didn't exactly scold me, it was a terrifying, blood freezing experience. ><

Hahh, stressful times like requires some icecream and chocolates heehee

singing to the wind[4:16 pm]

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Sunday, March 25, 2012

It's a really hot day, today. The burning heat from the sun is unrelenting. But I am feeling oddly tranquil inside. (Sorry for my rollercoaster mood swings) I realised people feel troubled because we subconsciously allow the negative things to affect us. I guess I do have some form of control over my life. I can do what I feel like when I feel like it if I choose to do so. I have always been fighting the same war inside me -- my freedom vs the circumstances.

Dun try so hard to change things. Try to find the right current and go with the flow. Fate will lead me to my rightful place. Follow my heart and nature's way.

I like to imagine myself in another world, a more peaceful one. When I close my eyes, I see myself walking through cool foresty ground, basking in shafts of sunlight streaming through gaps in the maple canopy. Taking small little steps on the fallen autumn leaves. The air smells of moist remnants of light drizzle long over. This is one of the episodes of day dreams where I get to let go of all the strings and knots that are tying me down in the real world.

Hahh... I love my blogskin. Every single detail in it was design according to my feel. Well it is the most original piece that came from me. If I had taken the 3 photos on the left myself the blogskin would have been completely original. I like adding subtle details to the skin like the textured background, the feathery feel and the butterflies :) haha the skin exude serenity and peacefulness. The kind of mood you get when you are relaxing over a cup of cappuccino in the late afternoon. :)

singing to the wind[2:44 pm]

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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

I guess I am really not a kind person. I can't help feeling irritated by some actions of some people. Mean thoughts often floats up my brain. Sometimes I can't help but accidentally let them out of my mouth. I end up saying things that hurt people. It also seems like the closer I am to the people, the lower my threshold of understanding lie. I seem to get angry more easily. I really shouldn't. I don't wish to say things I end up regretting. I don't know why I am annoyed because you are not wrong. I hope I can be more understanding, more caring and more helpful.

singing to the wind[9:28 pm]

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Saturday, March 10, 2012

Sometime I wonder why there are people out there who can do absolutely cold-blooded and terrible things to achieve whatever power or wealth they desire. I abhor the acts of the companies and authorities involved in trading of bear bile and find their feeble excuses to justify the inhumane actions disgusting. Just like crimes against humanity, crimes against animals have to be stopped. Bears are not born to be trapped in a tiny cage that does not allow much movement with a catheters pierced into their bodies for them to supply bile for their entire life until they die.

Sometimes as consumers who don't see the pain of the animals behind the veils. Or maybe we try to believe that the animals are treated nicely. But seriously, is it really the case? In economics we learn about profit motivated firms. Is it realistic to believe that firms are willing to bear higher costs to minimise the pain of the bears. As long as people buy bear bile, bears will continue to live in infernal torment... better dead than alive. So please people don't buy animal products anymore. Haiz..

I hope to make a difference and one way to start is to listen to the problems plaguing the world. Reflect and act now.

singing to the wind[1:17 pm]

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Sunday, March 04, 2012

Time really flies. Now that I have gotten my results, I can finally conclude my JC journey. I am going to miss all of you.The lingering regret is that I knew I could have given more and done better but was too lazy. But all that doesn't matter anymore, life goes on. I realise I haven't been making good use of my time so far. I like to say 'do later' but I guess I would have benefited if I had learnt to make myself 'do now'. I procrastinate too much. In fact, I only just packed my JC notes neatly into my cupboard.

I guess a single event wouldn't greatly affect our lives. What matters is how we carry on our journey. Success does not depends on a single step. I hope I'll stand tall and proceed on with passion. I hope I'll find meaning in what I eventually do. I hope I'll continue to strive for excellence and keep improving. More importantly, I hope to be happy with my life.

I have rested for so long, it's time to start work to enjoy the fruits of my labor in the future.

singing to the wind[12:48 am]

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